2 thumbs & a dummy

No one would believe me if I told them that I have never heard the word ‘Mummy’ or ‘Mum’ or ‘Mama’ come out of Arianna’s mouth till todate. She is more than 2 years old and even though her vocab seems to be growing by the day, one of the most important words [at least to the woman who carried her for 9 months and then endured super duper labour pains to bring her into the world] that she should be calling out every other moment is not said at all. Not even once…

But every other moment it’s daddy this and daddy that….where’s daddy? or daddy’s [pointing to every single thing in the house including hers!]. As much as I love the fact that she is definitely daddy’s girl, I would literally give anything to hear her say Mummy or Mum or Ma…for that matter, just once. I’m not choosy, just Ma will do. But nup….hasn’t happened yet. If Ted went out the door, it would be as if the world had ended for her and she’s cry and carry on. If I walked out the door, she wouldn’t even be bothered although I guess I must be thankful that she notice me walking out the door la. If ever she was looking for me, it would be ‘Where’s she?’. That’s all I am to her…She. She can call out Nana, Pa [Grandpa], Tata [maternal grandfather in Tamil], even Jesus!! But not Ma…. *sigh*

I bet most of you are laughing while reading this and lemme tell you, I was too – the first few times it happened. I thought it was hilarious. But now, I realised that it’s not anymore although Ted still thinks it funny. I don’t think he’d feel the same if the tables were turned. I feel that its come up to the point of embarassing, sad, disappointing and bizarre all rolled into one big messy thing for me. It’s not that the word mummy is not mentioned…Ted uses it often, I refer to myself as Mummy or sometimes mama especially when I’m calming her down and I say, Mama sayang…

I just don’t know why she refuses to say it. I find it totally weird…and very heartbreaking for me. Everytime she continuously asks for Daddy, my heart cracks a little coz I wished she’d call me instead. Maybe I’m being selfish but I think I deserve to be selfish for this matter. But no one can force her to call me Mum so what can I do? Just hope and pray that KR won’t do the same to me la. Apparently and I feel this too myself, that KR is closer to me than to Ted so I guess all is not lost, yet.