Today is officially the first day AF [Aunty Flo @ period @ red flag as I term it on my calendar] has shown up at my doorstep. And she is here to stay, no doubt until #2 arrives which won’t be so soon if we can help it, of course with the help of good ol’ Billings Method – damn I gotta get it right soon!!

I didn’t expect her to arrive so soon in fact, I was really rooting and hoping to hold out for another few more months but dammit, looks like it ain’t happening now. *sigh* I had been getting this discolored discharge [sorry abt this too much info happening here] towards the end of the last 2 months so I guess in reality and subscontiously, I knew this would be happening soon, but just didn’t know when.

I had to go dig out all my pad from the back of the closet since I didn’t intend to be using it so soon. I was smart to have been buying them when they were on specials so I have enough for a while but as you know, women and pads/pantyliners cannot be kept apart so despite having a pile high of pads, I still end up getting a couple of boxes when we are out shopping much to Ted disapproval. Heh.(Read : BOXES!)

Seeing red, literally, sent a wave of mixed feelings within me. I was more sad than happy or any other emotion for that matter because like most women, I hate it. But Ted’s found a superb solution for me : permanently keep me pregnant. *rolls eyes* This reminded me of when my friend just had a baby and the hubby was teasing her about the next 10 kids [they are both hockey players], her reply was, ‘Ya, so I don’t have to get up la. I just lie down here and kangkang forever [legs spreadeagled, for obvious reasons].’ When she said it, I thought it was hilarious although it was not meant to be a joke. I didn’t really get it but now I understand why….lol *call me a blur sotong*

Anyway, with AF back obviously we have to be more careful or I’ll be sending myself down that scare-yourself-shitless path and waking up at ungodly hours to pee on a stick again. Gawd, that moment really scared the crap of out me. Other than feeling sad that I can’t be pad-free from now and have to expect some cramps every month, it’s not that bad I guess. I guess I’m thankful that I’m not working and am a SAHM, and I’ve realised that this is truly a blessing for me because I never thought that I would admit that being a SAHM is really one of the best things that has ever happened to me.

That said, I’m off to finish the DVD I have on, Red Dragon because I like it – Ralph Fienes’ got this HUGE dragon tattooed on his back and that a turn on it is!!!!!  Sadly, I’ve got to be a *good* girl for exactly one week starting today. Blek!