2 thumbs & a dummy

Ok, major freaking out here of course. So we are officially fullterm…and what does that mean? In my doc’s own words….’Now we wait.’ How cool is that? So simple and yet those 3 words are blardy scary! Like I said in a couple of post ago, now that I know what I’m in for, I am not really looking forward to it.

To date, I have put on about 9kgs and when we weighed in the last time, the weight jumped by 2kgs which makes sense if bub is gaining a kilo per week. Come Tuesday, I’ll be 38 weeks which is round about the same time Arianna was born so who knows, by next weekend we *could* have a new bub BUT then again, I’m praying and keeping my legs crossed that she comes only after my mum arrives on 14/4. I know it’s cutting it really close to the due date but what can you do? She got a really good price from Matta fair which was something like RM1400+ so I wasn’t going to fuss about it.

I’m totally not loving how I’m feeling anymore. Sleeping is getting harder but I can still sleep no doubt. Just that it’s getting more and more uncomfy and which ever position I try, it’s just not comfy anymore. I used to be able to sleep very well on my left which I know I shouldn’t be doing but some sleep is better than no sleep at all. Then I also used to be able to sleep at this weird 45deg angle which worked out fine coz I couldn’t lie on my back, the pressure weighing down was horrible! But now, even that ain’t working either…and don’t get me started on turning from one side to the other! Omg…I literally have to get up, turn and lie back down….haiyolar!

One part of me wants it all to end so that I won’t have to suffer all this but of course, once Pacman comes, she will bring with her many sleepless nights which I am well aware of. I guess in the end, I just want to see this baby which has been hiding away for so long. It makes the wait for exciting too. I’ve got all these things going through my head and it’s just really exciting in the end.

I know I’ve mentioned this before but I thought I’d mention it again anyway. I feel that this time, I have not really prepared well for the birth. I hardly did any reading, and whatever reading I did do was mostly on how to breath and manage labour – that’s my main concern since I’ll be depending on my happy gas to pull me through. Although my hospital bag is packed, I only got it done like abt 1-2 weeks ago compared to being all ready to go at 30 weeks with Arianna, keeping in mind that I would pack and unpack several times just to make sure I had everything. But not this time….I chucked in what I thought I would need and that was it. I have not even unpacked ONCE. That is quite something, lemme tell ya! As for my birth plan, it was all verbal. Didn’t even bother printing it out coz from memory, nothing I wrote on that piece of paper worked out so why bother now? My main concern was as I said, the drugs and episiotomy.

I know many women out there would rather tear than get an episiotomy but I couldn’t care less to be quite frank. If you gotta cut so that bub comes out without me tearing and not feel the burning/stinging sensation, by all means, DO IT. Contractions I can handle….but the crowning, blek! I’ll pass if I could…. So other than these 2, there isn’t that much to a birth plan. All I want is a safe delivery, drama free please. I don’t care much for having a beautiful birth….I just want to get the baby out.

Now, about belly pix, I have been meaning to take a pix but as usual, I have a mountain of excuses to give to I’ll just pick one and say that my room looks like a warzone and there is nothing in there I’d like to show you. Hence, might have to wait till maybe tomorrow before we go out for Palm Sunday [hopefully].